A New Kind of Trust

Well, here we are again. The close of another 2WW. I was going to write a few days ago on Mother's Day but I've been cooped up with an injured back so I've been a little out of sorts.

Mother's Day was a little hard. But a few sweet friends called to say "Happy Mother's Day in faith." You have no idea how much that means. Those simple words, spoken out of love and in kindred faith turned a day that could have been so hard into a day full of hope.

This week in our daily reading, we read that verse in Psalms. The one I've mentioned before. . ."He places the barren woman in her home as the happy mother of children." (Psalm 113:9). And as the Lord's timing would have it, the day that we read that verse was the day I was to start my period. I read that verse and I meditated on it. I set my heart on it in full belief that it was a promise for me. And there was peace.

Later on that day, I took a pregnancy test. And it was positive. I AM PREGNANT! Praise the Lord. I give Him all the glory and honor for creating life in me. I couldn't wait for Dave to get home to show him the test. After we had the miscarraige last October, one of the things he said to me with tear filled eyes was, "I think next time I'll be more excited. I get it now." It's not that he wasn't excited the last time we conceived. He's just more reserved with his emotions. But losing that child opened up his heart to what God was doing. It was so sweet when I showed him the test. He WAS more excited. And it was like added fuel to the joy in my heart. I am pregnant!

And so I move on to a new kind of trust. One that puts this baby in the hands of the Lord. I have found myself battling fear that we'll miscarry again - even begging the Lord every day that He'd let us keep this child. But the Lord is saying, "Forget the former things. See I am doing a new thing." (Isaiah) It's a new kind of trust. One that will take us to an even deeper place in Him.

After all, isn't that what this journey is all about?