Super Fun Fertility Testing

This past week Dave and I began the initial fertility testing that is recommended to find out more about why I've not been able to sustain a pregnancy. One of those tests is the very lovely HSG.

Now. . .with all I've been through over the past 18 months, I've lost any level of modesty that I might have had. With doctors and nurses constantly poking around in very sacred places, nothing phases me anymore. Now I know why they say after you have a baby, your modesty goes out the window. I can tell you one thing. . .it flew away a long time ago. I just wish I had a baby to show for it.

So for this super fun HSG test, they basically fill my uterus with dye to see if there is any abnormal shape and to make sure that my fallopian tubes are open. I probably could have told them the tubes were open, after all I have conceived twice. But still they needed to check. Sure enough. . . there was a clear road to babyville and babyville (that would be my uterus) looks perfectly normal. I guess babyville just ain't accepting visitors at this time.

You may wonder why I'm taking such a light hearted approach to this whole thing. I don't know. Today I feel light hearted about it. And gosh darn it, I'd better hold on to that as long as possible. Because you never know. . .I could come crashing down at any moment.

But honestly, I do take this whole journey of testing very seriously. The prayer that we are praying and that we ask you to pray is that revelation will come from these tests. I am well aware of the fact that nothing may come from them. But that is not stopping me from begging my Lord to show us something. . .anything. . .so that I don't have to go into a third pregnancy blind.

If there is anything I've learned about prayer in the last year though, it is this. . .we should pray as though a yes is inevitable, believe as though anything is possible, and trust as though however He answers is what we prayed.