Well, it seems that will be my reality. My doctor called today to say I failed my second glucose screening which means I do in fact have gestational diabetes. My first reaction was to cry. Do I really need one more thing to worry about in this pregnancy? (My sweet friend Kristy is laughing right now because she totally understands what I mean.)
But. . .I've pulled myself together and I've decided that this is a good thing. I've needed a good kick in the pants for a long time now in the area of diet and exercise. I was doing so well a few years back. . .getting into a routine, working out, eating better. Then as each month passed and our "journey to starting a family" became harder, I lost the will to fight for this part of my life.
Of course I had it in me to fight for a baby. . .but that's just about all I had in me. I remember telling my friend, "I just can't fight two battles at once." Although I think the Lord understood my exhaustion, I also think He was waiting there all along ready to give me the strength to fight it all.
My doctor told me that I probably couldn't have prevented this earlier with diet and exercise (thank God or I'd be feeling really guilty right now), so this might be exactly what I need to finish this battle and claim not only a healthy child, but a healthy mama as well.
So there you have it. I probably won't partake in many of the wonderful delicacies that my family will prepare this Christmas. Those of you that are familiar with my sweet tooth understand how disappointing this is. Yet it's funny how everything comes into view when you are getting ready to become a parent and be responsible for another life. My husband's English trifle or a healthy baby. . .trifle. . .baby. . .trifle. . .baby. I think you know which one I'd choose, any time of the year.
2 comments:
Bummer! Maybe just a bite? I can't imagine getting through the holidays without sweets. Maybe I will try just to support you! My sis (with PCOS) also had gestational diabetes with I think 2 of her kids. It wasn't as hard as she thought it would be - she has quite a sweet tooth as well (I think it runs in the family - I have it too!). She did sneak here and there though! So glad to hear things are going well otherwise!!! It is a year of celebration and thanks for sure! Love you!
well that is sad but you have a great attitude about it. It won't be as hard as time goes on and you know that we'll all support you! hey - sugar free jello chocolate pudding isn't too bad - yummy actually and better for you! :)
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