My Friend Amber

This past weekend, my longtime friend, Amber came to visit. She is going to have her first child, a little boy, in about 7 weeks.

Amber and I went to college together, lived together, went through heartbreaks together and have eaten a lot of popcorn and M&Ms together! She is one of those friends that you know you'll have for life. . .and you always feel better being around her.

Dave and I asked Amber how she was feeling, knowing that her little boy was coming in the next 2 months. I wasn't surprised by her honesty, when she began to share that her biggest concern was that it would be too hard to adjust to having another person to take care of. She explained that she's enjoyed life with her husband. . .just the two of them. Although it would be wonderful, she is afaid that she'll be too selfish.

As I thought through what she was sharing, I thought to myself Wow, I've been so consumed with getting pregnant and staying pregnant that I haven't thought that much about having a child in my life. I suppose I figured this road has been so long and I've wanted it so badly that it would be a no brainer to give my life up for this little one. But hearing Amber share her heart really made me stop and consider if I was ready for this part of the process. I have a little bit longer to go but I want to begin preparing myself now.

I was so thankful for Amber's honesty. I'm not worried at all about her being an amazing mom. Amber is one of the most caring, nurturing, loving people I know. I have no doubt in my mind that she'll immediately fall in love with that little guy and be willing to give anything for him.

This was a good reminder for me. . .that sometimes we want things so badly that we don't think about the reality of having them. I know my heart is to devote myself to being a good mother but that doesn't mean it will be easy. But by the grace of God I know that Amber and I will be just as good of mothers as we have been friends to one another. . .not perfect, but willing to do what it takes to get better every step of the way.