This week, Dave and I scheduled my induction for May 23rd! It's hard to believe there's a date in sight for our pre-baby journey to come to a close. Perhaps it will be a little anti-climactic, but we felt that with all of the possible complications that gestational diabetes has to offer, we should play it safe and have Hope a little early. Of course I don't mind at all. I absolutely cannot wait to hold her. I got over my fear of induction and my fantasies of having an uneventful, natural birth and I just determined that I am willing to do whatever it takes to make this experience healthy and peaceful for me and for Dave and for her. I realize she could come earlier if she decides to and that I would welcome. We plan to have everything done by May 1 just so we can enjoy our last few weeks of freedom and be completely ready and peaceful for her arrival.
But let me tell you, the list of things to do is growing and becoming more and more overwhelming. I'm not sure why women feel the need to have everything in perfect order before they welcome a new life into their home . . . like somehow we have to achieve complete financial success, domestic order and world peace before we can give our attention fully to a newborn. I just keep thinking Oh gosh, we need to get on a strict budget. I need to transfer our finances into Quicken. I need every piece of paper in my home office to be filed tightly. My kitchen cabinets are kinda messy, I should reorganize those before the baby comes. Goodness, there is no way I can do it all in the next 2 months! I need to find a stinkin' pediatrician first!
So here I sit, to do list in hand, with 70 days left until my life changes forever. And I'm pretty sure that as soon as I take one look at her sweet face, I'll forget all about these silly, little chores. They will get done, eventually. But I'll only welcome my baby girl into this world once. And from then on, she'll be number one on my list.
2 comments:
Yes, the nesting phase has begun! I am so excited for you!!! Enjoy this time of irrational lists too! It will be something to look back on and laugh about. Just another piece of the adventure and a anticipation of your excitement and desire to have your perfect little Caroline Hope enter into the "perfect world" that she will call home. The good news is that all you really need for the first several weeks are a place for her to sleep, diapers, a few sleepers and a bed for you to sleep. Everything else will fall into place :) I can't wait!!!
Yes there is this incessant need to have order and predictability when looking at a new season of life that doesn't seem to have either of those. Ironically, Hope's arrival and acclimation to your home/routine will be more natural than you expect, and before you know it she'll be napping during the day and you can look at that list again and start widdling away at it. At least that's what I'm doing with Savannah's naptime!
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