Give Way

I ovulated again this month. Woo hoo! I don't know if I've ovulated two months in a row in years. How sad is that?! So it seems by body is responding well to the Clomid. I am thankful for this medical measure but I continue to confess the sovereignty of God and His power over all creation. I am asking Him to create life in me this month. I believe that He will if this is His timing. So here I go. . .the 2WW.

You know, even with all of the breakthrough and revelation, I don't think I've ever felt less in control of my life than I do right now. I suppose that means I'm exactly where the Lord wants me. It's not until you are out of control completely that you realize how much control you've taken in the past. It's a scary thought. What have I missed out on because I tried to take control? What have I affected in my life by my need to control?

I don't think anyone who knows me would call me a control freak. Sometimes the most dangerous flaws are the sneaky ones. I am so thankful for this season where revelation is coming in this area of my life. The Lord has such a sweet way of bringing things into the light through our circumstances.

I took some time to catch my breath tonight and I realized that this season is all about me giving up control. I cannot make the things happen that I am believing to happen. All I can do is press through this hard time as I allow Him to gain full control and receive full glory.

Last winter, Dave and I went to England with his parents. I just love England. The English have a funny way of communicating things very obviously. We Americans try to make up fancy terms for things. Like "yield." We totally made up that word. In England, where you might expect to find a yield sign, you'll find a sign that simply says, "Give Way." When I saw that sign for the first time, I thought - "what a concept!" Give Way.

Dave and I are believing for so many things right now. Not just a child. But for our divine destiny. It can be so overwhelming at times. I'm sure that I won't be perfect in my release, but I will purpose to give way for Him to act and for Him to receive all the glory through our lives.