Today I am seven weeks. . .which happens to be when I lost our last baby. So needless to say I'm even more so fighting fear that something will again go wrong. Although honestly, as much as those thoughts come to my mind and I chase them out. . .I have a settled peace in the bottom of my heart that this is it. I know that is the work of the Lord coming from the truth He's spoken over THIS pregnancy. I keep holding on to it.
It just goes to show you that the process never ends. I have one week left to wait for my first ultrasound. I keep counting the days and although seeing our baby on that screen will give me even more peace. . .it's just one more milestone on this journey. After that, I will count the days until my second trimester - when I will know for sure that everything is ok. But will I? The fact is, I will continue to have to trust the Lord throughout this entire pregnancy and beyond. The trusting never ends.
I know if I glean all I can now from this process, it will really help me with anything I have to face in life. . .as a mother, a wife, a friend. I've said from the beginning that I really felt the Lord had us on this faith journey because someday the stakes would be higher. We do not know what the Lord will require of us as we walk through life. I know I'd better take this time to build the foundation of faith that will take me through to eternity.
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I wish I could tell you that there is relief ahead. It is a huge relief when you get through that first trimester, but the milestones continue. It does build your faith though. I'm believing for THIS child!
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