Last night my doctor gave me my medical files to bring with me to the infertility specialist on Monday. Of course, I couldn't wait to look at them. I am such a sucker for information. I knew what they said. Heather had explained it all to me. But stupid me sat in bed, tired from the day, and read over all my labs and reports for the past 2 years. What a dummy I am! Moments later, I laid there just crying and crying. Poor Dave was asleep and I woke him up. He did his best to comfort me in the midst of his sleepiness. I just felt sad. Crushed. Tired. Broken. And so I cried and cried until I fell asleep.
Then this morning I came in to work, still a little sad and crushed. Every day in my email, I receive The Daily Verse from a girl named Kat that I used to work with. She chooses a verse and then writes a few sentances of encouragement. It's a simple little ministry she started years ago. Almost every morning is speaks loudly to me. This morning it practically shouted. She wrote:
"Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones that you have broken rejoice."
Psalm 51:8
"Sometimes things happen that we feel like literally crush our bones. They rock our confidence, steal our sense of security, and cause us to lose our balance and perspective. However, God is God. Each and every thing you encounter is going to be a building block toward you becoming more like Him. Take a moment this morning to allow the bones that have been crushed, the spirit that has been faint and the confidence that has been shot, to wake up to new perspective and pour out joy and gladness, for you have the hand of the Creator on you...and He's up to something!"
I receive this strong word and I hope you do too. Let us pour out joy and gladness today, even in the midst of our pain.
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