The Verdict

Our 2WW has officially come to a close. On Tuesday morning I took a pregnancy test and it was positive! Although I was excited and I felt in my heart I was pregnant, I remainded guarded until I went to see the doctor to confirm. Because the shot I took two weeks ago is actually the HCG (pregnancy hormone) I was afraid it was a false positive. The doctor's office took blood on Tuesday to check my HCG and progesterone levels but I had to wait until Wednesday afternoon to get the results. If that wasn't bad enough, Wednesday afternoon, 5pm rolls around and no one had called. I was actually a bit angry. I was so annoyed that they were robbing me of the peace of knowing I was really pregnant. The Lord quickly reminded me that my peace does not come from the doctor or the nurse or anyone but Him. So I calmed down just in time to go to LifeGroup.

I finally got the call yesterday afternoon. I am officially pregnant and the levels are great. I went in again yesterday to make sure I am progressing well. I won't know until later this afternoon (hopefully) that the pregnancy is good. I ask you all to please be praying that I receive good news today. My HCG level needs to double. That's how they know the pregnancy is progressing well.

I have to admit, we are a bit guarded and I, myself am battling a bit of fear. Not nearly as bad as I thought it would be. The day we found out we lost the baby in July, I was sure I could never go through early pregnancy again. I know now that I can do it, but I need the strength and peace of the Lord and our friends and family.

I keep telling myself there is no reason why anything should be wrong with our baby but I am still asking the Lord every time the fear intrudes on my thoughts, that I would be able to carry this baby to term and that it would be completely whole and healthy. We appreciate you praying that prayer with us as well.

We ask that anyone reading my blog not share this news with anyone else. I wanted so badly to follow through on journaling my process, but we also do not want the world to know yet. And for those that are close to us that do not read the blog on a regular basis, we'd like to chance to tell them ourselves. So for now, please keep this news to yourself. But we thank you for keeping up with our journey and for standing with us and believing for this child.

So here we go again. Like I mentioned before, I have this fresh faith that makes me feel like I can believe this baby into existence. The only thing I can do now is be at peace and believe. . .and wait on Him.