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After three weeks of waiting, my doctor called yesterday to say the results were in from the genetic testing they did on our baby after the D&C.

Our little baby. . .or should I say our little girl. . .had Turner Syndrome. Honestly, I'm not yet sure how this makes me feel. Dave and I talked a lot about it last night. I also spoke to a good friend who lost a baby to Turner Syndrome a few years ago. I just needed to process.

Part of me is very sad. It's a little more personal to know that the baby was a girl and that there was something wrong with her. I guess the mother in me now wishes I could have protected her. But I'm told that there was nothing we could have done and so I have to rest in that.

The other part of me feels relieved. This probably means that I am able to carry a child just fine. There may not be anything wrong with me. Now that we've figured out that I can conceive even with my PCOS and that we lost this child due to a chromosomal abnormality, I have every reason to believe our next pregnancy will be fine.

I am just so thankful to the Lord that He provided an answer through this test. I know that it could have come back inconclusive. I'm such a lover of information so I think it would have been really hard for me to not know if there was anything wrong.

I realize that this was such a small request in the grand scheme of my petitions before the Lord during this journey. But I am professing His faithfulness and I declare that He does give answers to our requests. I'm still holding out for the big, fat "Yes" - but for now, this will do to get me to put one foot in front of the other as I walk this road.